year 2020

What and how do you feel when I say the year 2020??

Well it's a big question mark isn't it? Well everyone knows how the year 2020 was and how everyone of us have dealt with it. We know what we wished at the end of 2019 and from the beginning of 2020 how it turned out to be. 

2020 as it is, I have seen families Begin separated. I have seen an individual loosing their legs, hands and their priorities. I have seen a mother cry over her lost babe, a father carrying his son's death body, I have seen dreams being shattered all over the floor, while the eyes still dream of fulfilling it. I have seen people cry over food, over to thrive and to survive. I have seen and I have felt how cruel it was for the mankind. 

Coffins became your house, ventilator became ur oxygen supply, where the ground of temple were left empty with hopes all seen. Where everyone and everything was kept still and only imagination and thoughts moved. 

People have suffered more that what they deserve. Like captured bired in a cage and a monkey in a zoo, we were made to thrive for freedom and survival. 

All I wish for 2021 is a healthy and blessed year where no one dies of a bad health and illnes and hunger. Where everyone gets meal on time and everything is back as is used to be. We deserve things better then this. God bless us all.

think about

Nothing'new though. I was coming out of the hospital as my duty got over and I happen to see a group of people gathered nearby a distance. I was confused as to what these people are doing there. I went close to see it. Hence then they were packing a dead body, the cascade was next to the body and a girl nearby her Early 30's, crying at a distance. I took my steps backwork, took a lean on the side wall and started thinking..

Life is 3 step journey, firstly your born then secondly you live ur life and thirdly you die. Among these three plases of life when you born u cry and everyone laughs, cheers and celebrate for you. Secondly when u live people will laugh at u, then you will cry for plent of reasons by your own , you go through hell lot of ups and downs then finally you are silent, you don't utter a word, your chest stops recoiling and you no longer breath. the PQRST wave on an ECG machine goes flat then people will cry for you. You will get your recognisation, people will talk how grate a person you're and all the things.

Why to appreciate a person when he's no more?? Why look up to the flaws when a person is no more?? Because what he is and now he's no more, it's all gone with him. Moaning last for few days or max a month. You are a forgotten soul henceforth. All that remains is a photo frame hanging on the wall with the spider web. That your value.

People would be there, surrounding you at every moment of ur life but the thing is how many of them will remain?? Its so easy to identify, at the end they will pack u up, wrape you around on piece of cloth, if ur Christian then they'll put u in Cascade and burry you if of other then you will get burned into ashes. Then where is ur idendity??? One cannot go with the ashes and say this is Mr. X or whatever it is.

Leave behind your pride, leave behind your ego, there is nothing kept it in. If people are staying happy, let them stay happy just don't create disharmony among them. Ultimately u will be turning into ashes and ashes with such quality doesn't get adjusted anywhere.

So by the time I was lost in my thought, the body was all sealed and was loaded on the car to be taken. I quickly rushed to the girl and I asked, was he ur father?? Yes, a very low sounding voice spoke up. I hope his soul would get the grace on heaven. And I made my way out..

Rough roads ahead

Incomplete feelings

Compromising and sacrifices

I may not be there the next moment

I miss you and I love you still

Stranger's we will be soon

But Stay with me, 

You are no less then the drug to me

Like the flower that dies

when the sun hides 

And survives 

When it feels life

Be my Sunshine and let me live

Lets heal and love ourselves

Not being selfish 

And surviving till the end.

what if

My heart is scared

My lips are stitched

My Nights are still 

What about those dream which got broken?

What about the person that got lost?

Will my wish ever get fulfilled?

You got no falws in yourself

You are just having a badday, 

let it go...

Let it go, what is no more there

The one who went is already gone

You got no flaws in urself ❤️

I have been friend with the darkness

Forgot the essence of light

And lost in the thoughts within

I have been broken from inside

Tried to smile but forgot the curves

And getting stucked on the scars formed

I tried to move on 

But scared of the truth

If the slight of happiness would fade

And would go forever from you

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I still love you

Here I am back in my balcony

Yes, there I am still waiting to see you

Yes, I miss you more than ever

I miss you for not being here with me

To the calls you responded 

And to those denied I love you

I talk to the wind, I hear the rain whisper

Never knew u could be this addective

Wait for me, for an instances

My eyes search for u everywhere

Yes I miss you more than I ever did

I miss you for not being here with me.

I am sorry, my heart still beats to your name

To all those beautiful days and night

I still wait to see you,

I still love you... 

I know it's hard to love a health care professional.

I know it's hard to love a health care professional. 

We get up early or work all night. We're late home and too tired to cook. We work alot because we know there are sick people who need us. We missed alot of events(weekends, holiday's, birthday's, parties). We don't get excited with your little "boo" because we've seen much worst things on our shift.

We don't want to talk when we get home. We've  been talking all day. We don't want to move, we've been running all day. You feel like we Left all our attention, heart and love at work and we're empty. And yes, we are.

We don't tell you that many time in the day we were anxious and scared. Because we work with lives or solve many stressful situtions with the best of our smiles.

You know what, we love our job.

That's why I know it's hard to love a health care professional, but you need to know, we need your love. We need your understanding. We need to be taken care of from time to time

We need another person to take care of the details because doing everything ourselves is exhausting. We need a shoulder to cry on without explaining the reason. 

We need you to do the hardest job you can do,

Appreciate the cause and love us!

○Thank you 💓