Failure

There I was standing
Among those who were seated
Then the voice chanted towards me
"losers have reasons"

Ignored and thrown to what I explained
Dumped into what i was not
Deeply felt it the broken soul
Dared to take a step, Thn the other

Things were changed, so we're they.
What it is today was not what yesterday looked like
I simply gave a smile, Hardly curved those muscles
I made my way to where I belonged.

Heavy heart and buderned with though.
Emotions rolling down like the heavenly cry.
But I kept the light burning inside me
A light that made me survive the hurricane and the tsunami

"you are a born winner" the wind whispered
Feeling the dew, the soul bloomed
Thn i took the second step to where I was moving,
For being dumped into what I was not.

Hope

Late night and heavy heart
Asking myself where I am?
Wondering what next could be,
Wondering what a heart would do without its beat.

I treasured her deep inside me
Now here she is dissolving away,
Drop by drop here she escapes
Like a soul tearing apart from its body.

"I would hold a tissue for you", that's what I said
Sparkles her smile on the way,
That was how I lived, seconds n minutes
Now I knew what the tissue was meant to

Struggling down, here we come, Hope in hope
There she stands and here I am
Beyond the bounded line of imagination
Bonded by tiny little thing called love..

Bikash Nirola

Three thousand miles

Siting down in my balcony
I see the young boys making their way home,
Waving me a goodbye, a goodbye to be seen again
With a smile curving them perfectly.

I came down the stairs to sea them off
For the journey they all been waiting for,
Sharing hugs and beautiful moment's
Waving a good bye to be seen again

"come home soon brother", voice crafted out from the crowed
Faking up the smile with my heart holding strong,
All I could then think was about you
Because deep inside, I knew I missed you.

3000 miles apart, there we stand
Realising the things and the truth I always knew,
I made my way back to my room
And laying down on my bed just to realise how not okay I was.

Scared and anxious, there you will find me
Realising people go by leaving us behind,
Leaving us with all the promises they keep for not leaving,
But yet a beam of hope lighted deep from my heart, for us..

Changed ma mind, I knew I was the blessed one
Blessed with a friend that knew me more Then anyone else,
Going through hell along and back when I am still here
"you beautiful lady,  you owe my heart", I whispered to myself.

Than I would hold on to myself, siting down on my balcony
Dropping off everything that comes on my way,
To take up a flight, high above the sky, across the sea,
A flight I would take just to see the person I miss.

There I stood up again, making myself strong
Never to get shattered by my feelings again,
I stood up on my feet and counted my steps
To see the young boys making their way home

The wind of change

There I saw her standing alone
After years of my waiting to see her again
No more the broken angel she was which I knew,
Cold and calm there she stands.

"Princess", I called her gently
Turning around with a gentle smile,
Her wings getting healed with the flourishing of feathers
There she stands making her way to fly.

"hold on", i said, looking deep into her eyes
Brittle and bright they were,
With her body next to mine, two heart 💕 beating as one
There stands my angle, with the bright side she could ever have.

Sparks began, Afire love it was
Coming together to tie the knot of souls,
"there it is, the match made in heaven"
Being immortal they shall stay..

Holding her hand, loosing my breath away
Nervous I was, with that fancy I always wanted to be.
''I love you with all my heart and soul'', I whispered,
With a bird in my hand worth two in the bush.

She opened her wings, holding hands we stand
There I was building my unbuilt castle with a fixed abode for us,
Counting steps and flying high up to the place as nice as ninepence,
we called it home.

                Happily ever after 😘💕

Bikash Nirola...

Broken angel.

There she stands all alone
Being forced to be what she is not.
There she stands being being someone who she is not,
Faking the world and wearing the mask

There you'll she Her crying one's eye out
Down in the mouth faced like a wet week end,
Forced to believe what she is not
Making her heart sink, there she stands.

Sad, lonely and depressed she is
Searching out the way to see the light,
Above and beyond the call of duty
Wishing for miracles to save her out

There is our angel, princess I call her
Broken angel with a dark soul,
Trying to fly out where she belong in
Yet the soul so pure n soft.

"so different you are" people tell her
Ignoring the vibes,  there she moves
A step after the other, there she goes
And there i stand seeing her walk away.

Never was she afraid of her own shadow
Followed by thousand and caught by none,
With the hope that she would fly
There I stand seeing her walk by.

There stand our princess all alone
Wishing out to fly away,
Angel with a broken wing, there she is
Waiting for the alarm to ring tring tring.

And there i was,  following her
Waiting to pull all hands on the deck,
Moving step by step towards the dark soul
Seeing her like hell being broke losen

I stepped back keep the dark soul alone
With all her jazz and darkness,
"my brightness could never make her bright",
I told to myself and followed her up..

Still today I follow the dark soul
Counting her steps,  wishing to make her bright,
Yet with no fix abode of self
I dream of making a castle of happiness for her..

Aquamarine - Angel of the dark soul

Lying down in the dark room,
There she is seen ones again.
In the place where she said she belongs,
Aquamarine, the queen of the dark soul.

Shattered into pieces, broken down like the glass,
Shining bright to hide the inner grieve
And holding onto the pain that no men can dare to,
There she shines, far away yet too bright.

"you are that star aquamarine", I said
Far beyond the galaxy, beyond the black stump.
There she stands, faking that smile and shedding tears
Aquamarine, the bravest girl with the mighty soul.

"yes I am that star", raised the voice.
Beyond the black stump, laminating alone.
Deeply far, yet so bright I am,
Holding the pain that no man can.

From devils 😈  dancing on the tip of her finger,
She then called herself the angels of the dark soul.
She had the best of both the world's,
Costing her an arm and a leg of her own.

There goes aquamarine, angel of the dark soul,
Never been caught dead, external being the light.
Not taking a grain of salt to what people say,
Making her way through the dark night.

"That is the external me", she whispered
Giving me the light to hide the inner me.
Broken, afraid, shattered and depressed, thats the real me,
The external covering up, making it look perfect.

"That is my soul!" she exclaimed
dark,sad,broken and unfixable.
Yet I see The Star, beyond the stump,
Filled with life and deep thoughts.

Dear future

Far beyond the mother land, here we go to set ourselves for the future that is unseen and unknown.
Far beyond leaving the motherland here we go in the absence of our parents to become someone and to stand on our own feet as to become someone some days.

My dad used to tell me,  son" if u don't accept what you get,  you will never get what you want".

Past was all unknown after reaching at this point of life. Betrayed, trashed, broken and thrown apart. Presence is the pressured part for the future that is still unknown. Living the present makes the living of tomorrow. But what if the present is just a dream?

Life is changing in every second. I even get scared of thinking what if one day we hear that someone died because of breathing?  Irony,  isn't it?  Because no 1 dies out of breathing. This is future. Anything can happen.

We give up our youth for the better future of ours, our family,nation and world as a better place to live in. We should think critically. Critically in every issue.

I had a patient in hospital today. He came in as he attempted suicide, trachea all damaged, neither to be saved nor let him die in front.  We referred him to other hospital.  Now MA point here is, before attempting for a suicide, close ur nose and mouth for a while and sit. Ur body will say idiot, open it up, I got to breath. No matter what the solution is, keep breathing.  Don't stop, no matter how tough things get and how low you feel.

We should think of our parents before taking each and every step. From our past till our future, the only person who held us up, lended the helping hand and supported us. What is to happen if we die now thinking our life is full of problem? What a waste of hard work it would be of our parents who didn't eatup to fill up our tummy. Who didn't wear proper cloths to make our body covered with beautiful dress and who sacrificed their dreams to fulfill ours. 

To the unknown future,
We may be thrown apart, teared down, broken and shattered. Remember, we had learnt  enough from our past and present to hopefully landup in making a brighter future of our self. We came this far,  we will never go back.

Dear 2016,
And here we all are back to where we all began,  with the end of the previous year and now about to end this year.  2016 I can say was not everyone's piece of cake.  Ask a month who thrived for food to feed her kids. Ask the farmer who worked in that sun to feed his kids and family. Ask that student who studied to pass the year.  Ask the love of that lover who stayed together till the end, holding hands. Ask the one who got separated,who might had full plan for future. 2016 was interesting..  So many things we learned and so many things we taught to people.

I would simply like to thank 2016 for giving me plenty of surprises. All those ups and downs in my life. I know it was not really good, but it was not so bad too.. It took away my close ones and yet gave me other close ones. I simply would lay a bouquet 💐 for the year. Thank you for the year. I had just enough time 😁. To all those pins I had I shall cherish.

I would like to pay ma respect to the people we lost, to those worries who died young and to those kids who became homeless by the drift of this end. No one can know where the journey ends. We can only know where we can start.

Just left with the last 4 days of the year. I would sing u away with the love song. To all this astronauts kind off feelings, tide up in that small box, drifting here and there. 2016 thanks for everything.  The only thing I want is in coming future I can say with pride,  2016 is when it all happened and here I am today.

The year ends,  let it go.  We gota let it go.  We gota live beyond, beyond till we can make even the imagination come to reality. So to the last 4days of this year,  let's be good to each other and I had a great year 2016. I learned and I taught.

Thank you for everything 2016.

Chasing you

Chasing you,  I always did.  With all my love spending my days just to see you.  I was running after you.  Simply wanted to be where you are.  Deeply captivated with u,  spinning my day, chasing you and yet u flew away.  I spend my day still running after you.  You took my heart and soul. The moment I rise till the moment I sleep you are just the thing I want.  This life and this love was always made to be advanterious and thrilling. And with all my thoughts I simply wait. There is nothing worst for staying with hope for getting your presence. You are the gloomy glory angel what my heart seeks to hold. Oh Holy Spirit you are, unheard and unseen yet i am head over hill for you.

I know you are siting somewhere, for where there is no sight of you to be seen. It's high for me to attain and or where I can see.  If I take the wings of the morning I loose it by the evening.  The darkness shall fall on me and the night shall sing for you to come to be in front of me.  Where you are all I need and you are all I am chasing for. How precious and great you are. No enemy of mine shall feel you, touch you and search you, for you are only to be mine for now and forever...

You and I we are meant to be. Beyond the lands of fairy tale. Let the heart beat and the story be heard by very one.  You and I to believe we were Alys meant to be. From the sky to the bottom of the ocean I ask sometimes m I crazy m still chasing you.  I will be loosing you forever like everything I won't find again. I don't want to hold you if u don't want to stay up.

I cnt tell my heart to stop beating as it beats with your name.  Ma mind think as for to see you.

Bikash Nirola