Strangers

As I walked down the street, I saw her from across the way. She was walking towards me, but we locked eyes for only a brief moment before she looked away. It was like we were strangers passing each other on the sidewalk, even though we used to be in love.

It's strange how quickly life can change. Not too long ago, we knew everything about each other - our favorite colors, our childhood stories, the little quirks that made us unique. But now, we co-exist in silence, as if we never shared a life together.

I can't help but wonder what went wrong. Was it the arguments we had? The misunderstandings? The distance that slowly grew between us? Or was it simply the fact that people change over time, and we just weren't meant to stay together forever?

Even though the pain of losing her is still acute, it feels as though I'm mourning the loss of a person I barely know anymore. It's like she's become a different version of herself, and I'm just a stranger passing by. Perhaps someday we'll find our way back to each other, but for now, we remain two separate figures in a crowded city

Bikash nirola

Cigarette friend

In the silence of the night,

I light my cigarette with a weary sight.

The moon shines bright,

But my heart is filled with a lonely plight.

The smoke curls up and disappears,

Just like the love that brought me tears.

The cigarette burns low,

As I remember how you let me go.

The moon watches over me,

As I drown in my own misery.

I inhale deep and exhale slow,

Wondering how I let my love for you grow.

But now I sit here all alone,

My heart shattered and turned to stone.

The cigarette goes out,

As I lay on my bed with a silent pout.

The moon still shines,

But my heart no longer intertwines.

For I am alone with only my sorrow,

And a cigarette as my only tomorrow.

Nights

Holding a cigarette in my hand

With a beer on the other

Following as to what my mind could hold

Standing alone in the fight so cold

Trying to find a way, before I get too old

Tackling the big dreams that I can hold

Unknown of what could happen at the very most,

With the tears that flow but still being bold

Where the dreams haunt like a real ghost,

Where predictions cannot be made in the dawn, For what is comming is better than what's gone, 

For thought howling in my head, telling me to take a step.

TikTok, TikTok reminds me of the game I owe, Will there really be a light at the end, where I can bow?

Bikash nirola

struggle in life

Life moves so fast, and we’re so distracted, that sometimes we just need to slow down, feel, think and just be. As a kid from a mediocre family, enormous dreams and high hope. In the dwell of civilization and revolution, I also wanted to become someone who could be looked upon. Seeing my parents work day and night to sustain the family, to provide with necessities and to thrive. I often asked myself, why are we so hard on ourselves? 

Dates back to the year 2013 when I used to study in class 12. With much hindrance to achieve the goals in life, with bags full of books. Time flies by prompt, and the whole year was put up to be assessed by an exam. My life long education came to the test, 3 hours down to me. Later on after everything, all the hard work I did, all the time i took, the result came and I saw I couldn't do well. It was like an end to what all I have thought, dreamed and drew in my mind about my future. It was after then I started to feel like nothing was going good, I was not worth into achieving my goals. I used to stay alone, isolated myself from friends and family' with the guilt that I couldn't come up to their expectations. People poked me, they talked about me and I was like a puppet among men.

On the contrary only parents know their children, my parents noticed my changes in behavior over the passing time, they came to me and console me. My dad told me son, life is never as easy as it seems to be. Hard work always pays off, in one way or the other. Make the familiar unfamiliar and see son. A man shall never be broken if he is determined to do what he wants to. Never consider yourself less than the other person. If they can, you can too. Don't listen to what the people say instead make an effort to achieve your goals, he said and after listening to what my dad told me and seeing hope in both of their eyes for me, my heart sparkled and I saw the hight of hope bright enough to grow my wings back and fly again. I learnt to struggle and come back from it. 

I believe everyone has fall in life, but one should always know how to rise up. Life is not a bed of roses, consequently when u fall, you should know how to hold on those thorns and rise again. I believe that the struggle we are going through today is the strength you will have to survive tomorrow. 

Mid-night label

Warm n cosy bed, shadows on the wall

Window open and breeze crackle in

I gaze at the light, up on the top

I wish u were here with me

All the fuss and tantrums of your

The cigarette we ligh and fight till we share,

The touch of ur hand till the warmth i feel

I wish u were here with me

The cuddle I miss, when being with you

The baby I turn till the time I see you,

The wide open eyes, that waits to see you

I wish you were here with me

No Matter how far till the next time I see you,

Just remember what I wish for you

And never fear for what is to be true, 

Just remember, I love you

drained

For you have lost the rose I used to be

As today I am like the door with no key

For I can be someone else in every second

And deceive it like a clown in a deadened

Stop saying that  you know me from who I was, 

And stop saying that I had no flaws

For I was someone with emotion in claws

And now I am left without any of my paws

Life has taught me to close my eyes and

To trust something that can even be a lie

And to unseen the truth as it is,

For you will be thrown apart in aquiz

Now Stop seeing me the way I was

And start to see how I will be in a pause

For we may cross the path in life

And you will see me back with my wife.

Learn to move-on and not to burn

For u have lost and got nothing to earn

But see me rise from your balcony's door

As I move alongside with a  roar

As Everything will fall out of place

Under the pillow Out of the race

With drops of tears rolling down your face

And someone not having to gaze..

Bikash Nirola

year 2020

What and how do you feel when I say the year 2020??

Well it's a big question mark isn't it? Well everyone knows how the year 2020 was and how everyone of us have dealt with it. We know what we wished at the end of 2019 and from the beginning of 2020 how it turned out to be. 

2020 as it is, I have seen families Begin separated. I have seen an individual loosing their legs, hands and their priorities. I have seen a mother cry over her lost babe, a father carrying his son's death body, I have seen dreams being shattered all over the floor, while the eyes still dream of fulfilling it. I have seen people cry over food, over to thrive and to survive. I have seen and I have felt how cruel it was for the mankind. 

Coffins became your house, ventilator became ur oxygen supply, where the ground of temple were left empty with hopes all seen. Where everyone and everything was kept still and only imagination and thoughts moved. 

People have suffered more that what they deserve. Like captured bired in a cage and a monkey in a zoo, we were made to thrive for freedom and survival. 

All I wish for 2021 is a healthy and blessed year where no one dies of a bad health and illnes and hunger. Where everyone gets meal on time and everything is back as is used to be. We deserve things better then this. God bless us all.